༻ silentcry ༺
⇢ silent warrior of shadowclan ⇠
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“ So 'those who love you will hear you when you're silent'?
Then I guess it's not surprising that no one hears me, right? „
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⇀ lonely ◦ harsh ◦ cold ◦ determined ◦ devoted ◦ sensitive ↽
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“ So 'those who love you will hear you when you're silent'?
Then I guess it's not surprising that no one hears me, right? „
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⇀ lonely ◦ harsh ◦ cold ◦ determined ◦ devoted ◦ sensitive ↽
◦ Name ◦ Silentcry
(Silentkit - Silentpaw) ◦ Alias ◦ none ◦ Age ◦ 48 moons ◦ Gender ◦ Female ◦ Orientation ◦ Demisexual / Demiromantic (hetero) ◦ Alignment ◦ Lawful Neutral ◦ Beliefs ◦ Starclan, but doesn't think they are much help ◦ Mental State ◦ Recovering from depression ◦ Condition ◦ » blind » depression (starting to recover) ◦ Breed ◦ Tabby/Tuxedo mix |
◦ Affiliation ◦ Shadowclan
(Shadowclan - Shadowclan Border) ◦ Loyalties ◦ Shadowclan (Starclan) ◦ Rank ◦ Warrior (kit - apprentice - rogue - apprentice) ◦ Mentor ◦ none (✘ Cedarspring ; ✘ Baycloud [Jr] (unofficial) ; ✘ Ashfeather) ◦ Apprentice ◦ none (Dovepool ; ✘ Ebonypine) |
◦ Theme Song ◦
» "Better Off Dead" by Sleeping With Sirens | "Mirror Mirror" by Ceasey Lee Williams ◦ Name Origins ◦ » Silent ◦ didn't cry when she was born » Cry ◦ personal struggles |
Kit/Apprentice
Silent is quiet and very anti-social. She is a good at listening - but doesn't care enough about others to actually listen to. Ad she likes to think before acting, not liking to act like a fool or mouse-brain, but can sometimes snap and lash out at other if angered. She doesn't take orders well if they are not from the leader and/or deputy - or anyone she respects for that matter. She hates to be looked down on, and she thinks that people go easy on her since she's blind, which she hates. Though she herself believes she's incapable of many things due to her blindness and even let it hold her back a couple of moons before becoming an apprentice. But she is still determined, and hates it when others believes she's incapable of doing something - despite her own lack of faith in herself. This apprentice can be cold and harsh, she usually is, but she has a softer side, it's just hidden deep down. It is extremely difficult to get to her softer side since she rarely sees in the use in friends - and is honestly too busy trying to become a warrior worthy of Shadowclan to even bother - and she usually doesn't have sympathy and believes that others should just pick themselves up. But she does have few exceptions. Her mother is one of those very few exceptions along with her sister Baycloud. Baycloud was always kind to her and they've known each others all their lives due to being litter-mates, so she does have a soft spot for her sister. She also is caring towards her mother, being aware of how much pain her mother is in and is constantly trying to become more just for her, hoping to one day be enough to make her mother happy.
Warrior
After the death of her mother Silent was thrown into depression similar to how her mother was after her father had left them. She doesn't seem to want anything to do with anyone nor seems to try to pull herself out of her depression. She doesn't like to let people in nor care about them in fears of losing another cat that she loves. She is shown to hold to grudges still, even after learning how much it hurts to get over the grudge when it's too late. Though she is still shown to care about people from afar and is willing to take up responsibility if she feels it's lacking when it's needed, such as how she practically raised her younger half-siblings after their parents wanted nothing to do with them. She does still care for people and wishes they should couldn't and is extremely saddened by her loneliness but it too afraid to get over it. Silent is also too mentally and emotionally tired to get herself out of her depression and seems to have accepted this as part of her now, blaming the the world for what has became of her and for all of her pain and believes that their is nothing else she can do.
Older Warrior
Silent seems to have learned to be a little more open with others. She has also grown softer after having kits of her own. Happier now, she has stopped holding grudges - or at least significantly less than she use to - and is much more willing to open up to people. She is still awkward about making friends since it is something she had rarely ever done and doesn't exactly go out of her way to make friends, but she doesn't push people away anymore.
Silent is quiet and very anti-social. She is a good at listening - but doesn't care enough about others to actually listen to. Ad she likes to think before acting, not liking to act like a fool or mouse-brain, but can sometimes snap and lash out at other if angered. She doesn't take orders well if they are not from the leader and/or deputy - or anyone she respects for that matter. She hates to be looked down on, and she thinks that people go easy on her since she's blind, which she hates. Though she herself believes she's incapable of many things due to her blindness and even let it hold her back a couple of moons before becoming an apprentice. But she is still determined, and hates it when others believes she's incapable of doing something - despite her own lack of faith in herself. This apprentice can be cold and harsh, she usually is, but she has a softer side, it's just hidden deep down. It is extremely difficult to get to her softer side since she rarely sees in the use in friends - and is honestly too busy trying to become a warrior worthy of Shadowclan to even bother - and she usually doesn't have sympathy and believes that others should just pick themselves up. But she does have few exceptions. Her mother is one of those very few exceptions along with her sister Baycloud. Baycloud was always kind to her and they've known each others all their lives due to being litter-mates, so she does have a soft spot for her sister. She also is caring towards her mother, being aware of how much pain her mother is in and is constantly trying to become more just for her, hoping to one day be enough to make her mother happy.
Warrior
After the death of her mother Silent was thrown into depression similar to how her mother was after her father had left them. She doesn't seem to want anything to do with anyone nor seems to try to pull herself out of her depression. She doesn't like to let people in nor care about them in fears of losing another cat that she loves. She is shown to hold to grudges still, even after learning how much it hurts to get over the grudge when it's too late. Though she is still shown to care about people from afar and is willing to take up responsibility if she feels it's lacking when it's needed, such as how she practically raised her younger half-siblings after their parents wanted nothing to do with them. She does still care for people and wishes they should couldn't and is extremely saddened by her loneliness but it too afraid to get over it. Silent is also too mentally and emotionally tired to get herself out of her depression and seems to have accepted this as part of her now, blaming the the world for what has became of her and for all of her pain and believes that their is nothing else she can do.
Older Warrior
Silent seems to have learned to be a little more open with others. She has also grown softer after having kits of her own. Happier now, she has stopped holding grudges - or at least significantly less than she use to - and is much more willing to open up to people. She is still awkward about making friends since it is something she had rarely ever done and doesn't exactly go out of her way to make friends, but she doesn't push people away anymore.
family tree
◦ Mate / Interest ◦ » none (✘ Larkdrizzle ; ✘ Goosegrumble) ◦ Parents ◦ » ✘ Eversong | Mother | Loves / Adores / Misses dearly | Depressed over death » Iceshard | Father | Developing Care for (formerly loathed) | Use to blame for their family falling apart / He's helping her raise her kits / Finally beginning to accept his apology and accepting him as part of her family again » Rabbit | Maternal Step-father | Conflicted / Unsure | Jealous that he is able to make Ever happier than she is able to ◦ Siblings ◦ » ✘ Baycloud [jr] | Sister | Loves / Misses dearly | Close to / Depressed over death » Marbledface | Sister | Complicated | Guilty for refusing to make amends » ✘ Fawnkit | Sister | Never fully knew | Died as a kit » Frozenpond | Younger Paternal Half-Brother | Ignores » ✘ Unnamed | Younger Paternal Half-Sister | Doesn't know | Unaware existed » ✘ Unnamed | Younger Paternal Half-Sister | Doesn't know | Unaware existed » Voleskip | Younger Paternal Half-Brother | Cares for | Practically raised » Thornshadow | Younger Paternal Half-Brother | Conflicted | Practically raised / Fears something dark inside him ◦ Kits ◦ » Smokepaw | Son | Loves » Halepaw | Son | Loves » Summitpaw | Son | Loves » ✘ Darkpaw | Daughter | Loves |
◦ Facts ◦
» Somebody that is supportive and patient with her. They do not have to be patient in general, just understand that Silentcry is a mess and needs to be handle gently (despite her refusing to admit this). » Somebody she can vent to about things. Even things that happened in the past and cannot be changed. She would prefer it if they didn't 'look on the bright side' during these stories. She just wants somebody she can talk to. It annoys her when people are positive about her life and try to comfort her during the stories. In fact, she would prefer if they got annoyed alongside her. |
◦ Facts ◦
» one of my first characters and my first blind one » she didn't cry when she was born (just like me), hence her name » i hope to someday find her mate and possibly plan on doing so when she's in StC |
◦ Friendly ◦
» ✘ Goosegrumble | Close Friend / Former Unofficial Mate | Loves / Cares for dearly | Can talk to about anything / Believes she was in love with, but realized that she just care about him as a friend / Accidentally had his kits » ✘ Larkdrizzle | Close Friend / Former Slight Crush | Cares for dearly |
◦ Neutral ◦
» ✘ Ebonypine | Friendly Neutral / Former Apprentice | Likes » ✘ Smokeblossom | Friendly Neutral | Likes » Smokepaw | Friendly Neutral | Likes » Wolfglare | Friendly Neutral | Likes |
◦ Hostile ◦
» Shrew | Former Paternal Step-Mother | Hates | Mother of her half siblings » ✘ Ash [Blazingash] | Evil Leader / Enemy | Hates | Was driven out by her during the EE / Glad she's dead » Dovepool | Former Apprentice | Dislikes / Distrusts | Hates her mother (Blazingnight) / Dislikes how she became mates with Thornshadow » ✘ Rusticash | Enemy | Dislikes » Ashnose | Enemy | Dislikes » Oceanfur | Enemy | Dislikes |
◦ Strengths ◦
» is extremely loyal |
◦ Weaknesses ◦
» doesn't make many friends and tends to push people away » holds grudges and regrets it when it's too late |
◦ Base Coat ◦ Black
◦ Eyes Color ◦ Silver ◦ Fur Length / Texture ◦ Short ◦ Build ◦ Lean, thin ◦ General Height ◦ Slightly below average ◦ Markings ◦ » silver chin, toes, tail tip and spot on chest. » black tabby stripes (only scene in bright daylight) ◦ Misc / Scars ◦ » eyes can look a hint of blue or green, depending on lighting » eyes clouded due to blindness » is unaware that she looks more like her father than mother |
Silentkit was born to Eversong and Iceclaw, alongside her sisters Marbledkit, Baykit and Fawnkit. at first this was a beautiful, loving family - but it quickly became a broken one. Fawnkit died shortly after birth, Iceclaw ran away from the clans and Eversong was thrown into depression and has been like that since. Right before Iceclaw left, Eversong figured out that Silentkit was blind since she had already opened her eyes, but was acting and talking about it like she hadn't. Saddened, her mother told her about this, and Silentkit began to believe that she could never become a great warrior due to this.
Silentkit became an apprentice a few moons after Marbledpaw and Baypaw, wanting to stay in the nursery longer since she still believed she couldn't become a real warrior. When she became an apprentice, Eversong began to pull away from her kits and others, falling deeper into her depression. Due to this, Marbledpaw estranged herself - embarrassed by the fact that their father was a loner/rogue and mad that neither parents seemed to be a part of the family anymore. Silentpaw became enraged with Marbledpaw and in turn started to ignore her sister and act as though she didn't exist, just like she did with their family. Despite Eversong not bothering too much with them, Silentpaw still loved her very much. She understood why her mother was hurting and was aware that deep down, Eversong still loved them, just had a difficult time with emotions now.
Later on, Silentpaw and her sister Baycloud - now a warrior - were hanging around the ocean. Baycloud had become an unofficial mentor to Silentpaw and the two enjoyed spend time together on the territory or near the ocean. Sadly, this day Baycloud was attacked by a shark and killed right in front of Silentpaw. This left Silentpaw the only kit of Eversong, hardly counting Marbledface as her kit since she has estranged herself from the family. Baycloud left a loner she found - Leo - to Silentpaw to take care of, since she couldn't help him when she's dead. It didn't take long until she found out that he was Baycloud's son, whom she had with an unknown loner, making him Silentpaw's nephew. The two got into a fight about Starclan - her supporting them, and Leo against them - which ending up becoming a physical fight, and Silentpaw lost due to being blind. She left, but knew that she had to to take care of him because of her sister's dying words. Things got settled between them when she found him in a clearing with a rogue named Mist (now Mistfall) and his leg had been ripped off. She initially thought that Mist had attacked him, but he claimed that she was actually helping him and that a Shadowclan warrior had doe this to him while he was trying find Silentpaw and Eversong. Silentpaw ended up bring him into the Shadowclan camp to see Eversong, but Eversong wanted nothing to do with him and told her daughter that "there is no family".
During the EE, Silentpaw didn't care much for Blazingnight - not because she believed in Starclan or anything like that, but rather because she just felt something was a bit off with their new leader. Her father returned during this time with a new mate named Shrew and a son named Jalid (now Frozenpod). Silentaw and Eversong were greatly upset by this, and continued to give them the cold shoulder, despite how much Iceclaw tried to apologize for what he had done. When the EE was at the height of it's power having all four clans taken over by the Evil Leaders, Silentpaw was forced out f the clan by Blazingnight due to her blindness and that be viewed as weak. She was angered and frustrated by this, but was able to live on her own, thought she kept her name and waited for the day that she could possibly return to her birth place. Right after she went missing, Eversong and Iceclaw did in fact go looking for her, which surprised Silent due to the fact that Eversong hadn't even seemed to care when Baycloud died, but did go out of her way to search for Silentpaw.
After Silentpaw returned home, her mother retired to the elder's den due to her illness worsening and refusing to get help from Kestrelberry since she didn't wish to waste his herbs. Silentpaw ended up being granted her warrior name - Silentcry - and she went right to Eversong to tell her. Her mother wasn't a fan of the name, but pretend that she liked it since she was proud of Silentcry and her daughter seemed happy to finally have her warrior name. Knowing that their mother was sick, Marbledface attempt to make amends with Silentcry and Eversong, though Silentcry refused to let Marbledface back into her life and viewed her sister as a traitor to their family since she practically disowned them for moons. Not too long after, Eversong passed away due to her untreated illness. The death of the only person she loved caused Silentcry to fall into depression and she refused to socialize with anyone - even less so then before.
Despite being depressed and not wanting anything to do with Iceclaw's new family, she ended up becoming the motherly figure to her youngest half-siblings, Volekit and Thornkit. After Iceclaw and Shrew fell apart and neither wanted the kits, Silentcry started to watch over the kits from afar and would only step in when necessary, but eventually started to form an actual bond with the kits. She got along fine with Volekit since he was kind, friendly, and was desperately enough for a mother that he accepted her, but she had difficulty with Thornkit since he only wanted Volekit in his life. At some point, Silentcry was given an apprentice, Dovepaw, whom happened to be Blazingnight's daughter. She disliked Dovepaw because of her mother but still forced herself to train Dovepaw as much as she could. Silentcry also continued to ignore Marbledface, still wanting nothing to do with her as well as Iceclaw, who was also still trying to make amends with her. Moons passed and Dovepaw became Dovepool. Thornkit -now Thornshadow - seemed to completely cut his ties with Silentcry, his final move was becoming mates with Dovepool, whom Silentcry still greatly dislikes. Though she remained close with Volekit - now Voleskip - despite Thornshadow being displeased by this.
Later on, Marbledface died. Silentcry remembered how her sister had tried to make amends with her and felt extremely guilty about refusing to do so. She was now left alone in the family, with only Iceclaw now Iceshard - left. Though she still wasn't ready to forgive him yet. Right after Marbledface's burial, Iceshard tried to talk with Silentcry, but the conversation made her emotional and she ran onto the territory. As she ran she came across the border with Windclan, almost crossing it by accident as she ran. Though luckily Goosegrumble, the cat that found her at the border, was more understanding than she could have guess. She began to explain cautiously that she was there because she wanted to get away from her father for awhile, and as she said this, she realized that she desperately needed someone to talk to about her problems. Much to her surprise, Goosegrumble was willing to hear her out and happened to have a broken family as well.
Silentkit became an apprentice a few moons after Marbledpaw and Baypaw, wanting to stay in the nursery longer since she still believed she couldn't become a real warrior. When she became an apprentice, Eversong began to pull away from her kits and others, falling deeper into her depression. Due to this, Marbledpaw estranged herself - embarrassed by the fact that their father was a loner/rogue and mad that neither parents seemed to be a part of the family anymore. Silentpaw became enraged with Marbledpaw and in turn started to ignore her sister and act as though she didn't exist, just like she did with their family. Despite Eversong not bothering too much with them, Silentpaw still loved her very much. She understood why her mother was hurting and was aware that deep down, Eversong still loved them, just had a difficult time with emotions now.
Later on, Silentpaw and her sister Baycloud - now a warrior - were hanging around the ocean. Baycloud had become an unofficial mentor to Silentpaw and the two enjoyed spend time together on the territory or near the ocean. Sadly, this day Baycloud was attacked by a shark and killed right in front of Silentpaw. This left Silentpaw the only kit of Eversong, hardly counting Marbledface as her kit since she has estranged herself from the family. Baycloud left a loner she found - Leo - to Silentpaw to take care of, since she couldn't help him when she's dead. It didn't take long until she found out that he was Baycloud's son, whom she had with an unknown loner, making him Silentpaw's nephew. The two got into a fight about Starclan - her supporting them, and Leo against them - which ending up becoming a physical fight, and Silentpaw lost due to being blind. She left, but knew that she had to to take care of him because of her sister's dying words. Things got settled between them when she found him in a clearing with a rogue named Mist (now Mistfall) and his leg had been ripped off. She initially thought that Mist had attacked him, but he claimed that she was actually helping him and that a Shadowclan warrior had doe this to him while he was trying find Silentpaw and Eversong. Silentpaw ended up bring him into the Shadowclan camp to see Eversong, but Eversong wanted nothing to do with him and told her daughter that "there is no family".
During the EE, Silentpaw didn't care much for Blazingnight - not because she believed in Starclan or anything like that, but rather because she just felt something was a bit off with their new leader. Her father returned during this time with a new mate named Shrew and a son named Jalid (now Frozenpod). Silentaw and Eversong were greatly upset by this, and continued to give them the cold shoulder, despite how much Iceclaw tried to apologize for what he had done. When the EE was at the height of it's power having all four clans taken over by the Evil Leaders, Silentpaw was forced out f the clan by Blazingnight due to her blindness and that be viewed as weak. She was angered and frustrated by this, but was able to live on her own, thought she kept her name and waited for the day that she could possibly return to her birth place. Right after she went missing, Eversong and Iceclaw did in fact go looking for her, which surprised Silent due to the fact that Eversong hadn't even seemed to care when Baycloud died, but did go out of her way to search for Silentpaw.
After Silentpaw returned home, her mother retired to the elder's den due to her illness worsening and refusing to get help from Kestrelberry since she didn't wish to waste his herbs. Silentpaw ended up being granted her warrior name - Silentcry - and she went right to Eversong to tell her. Her mother wasn't a fan of the name, but pretend that she liked it since she was proud of Silentcry and her daughter seemed happy to finally have her warrior name. Knowing that their mother was sick, Marbledface attempt to make amends with Silentcry and Eversong, though Silentcry refused to let Marbledface back into her life and viewed her sister as a traitor to their family since she practically disowned them for moons. Not too long after, Eversong passed away due to her untreated illness. The death of the only person she loved caused Silentcry to fall into depression and she refused to socialize with anyone - even less so then before.
Despite being depressed and not wanting anything to do with Iceclaw's new family, she ended up becoming the motherly figure to her youngest half-siblings, Volekit and Thornkit. After Iceclaw and Shrew fell apart and neither wanted the kits, Silentcry started to watch over the kits from afar and would only step in when necessary, but eventually started to form an actual bond with the kits. She got along fine with Volekit since he was kind, friendly, and was desperately enough for a mother that he accepted her, but she had difficulty with Thornkit since he only wanted Volekit in his life. At some point, Silentcry was given an apprentice, Dovepaw, whom happened to be Blazingnight's daughter. She disliked Dovepaw because of her mother but still forced herself to train Dovepaw as much as she could. Silentcry also continued to ignore Marbledface, still wanting nothing to do with her as well as Iceclaw, who was also still trying to make amends with her. Moons passed and Dovepaw became Dovepool. Thornkit -now Thornshadow - seemed to completely cut his ties with Silentcry, his final move was becoming mates with Dovepool, whom Silentcry still greatly dislikes. Though she remained close with Volekit - now Voleskip - despite Thornshadow being displeased by this.
Later on, Marbledface died. Silentcry remembered how her sister had tried to make amends with her and felt extremely guilty about refusing to do so. She was now left alone in the family, with only Iceclaw now Iceshard - left. Though she still wasn't ready to forgive him yet. Right after Marbledface's burial, Iceshard tried to talk with Silentcry, but the conversation made her emotional and she ran onto the territory. As she ran she came across the border with Windclan, almost crossing it by accident as she ran. Though luckily Goosegrumble, the cat that found her at the border, was more understanding than she could have guess. She began to explain cautiously that she was there because she wanted to get away from her father for awhile, and as she said this, she realized that she desperately needed someone to talk to about her problems. Much to her surprise, Goosegrumble was willing to hear her out and happened to have a broken family as well.